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Cyclothymia, Bipolar Or Something Else? Kind If Long By The Way?

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Ok so a year ago started my worst episode ever. I had to take time off work, I was on fluoxetine for depression, drank myself into a state where I’d self harm and was combining alcohol with overdoses of prescription drugs. This shot up to a couple of weeks of spending all my wages (bearing in mind I was on reduced income for being off) and then I ended up getting myself into debt owing over a couple of thousand pounds to payday loan companies, the bank, and friends due to wreckless spending.
So anyway, I’ve my psychiatrist has put me on 900mg lithium, and diazepam and said he thinks its cyclothymia.
But over the last few months, my moods have still been extremely strange:
-Was switching between religions from Islam, Buddhism and satanism. I’d be truly fixed and read, and read, and read about these religions and was obsessed. One time I was in a strange phrame of mind during my satanic period. I can’t describe to you what I felt like but it was as if I was living in a kind if dream world.
-Next, I’d be having these big ideas about creating my own business. I was set on it and was determined I’d be a ‘local celebrity’ due to the success of my business.
-Then I emmersed myself in learning Arabic and French. I had posters, alphabets and writing all over the walls of my room thinking I could master the languages in no time at all.
All the religion and language stuff happened within a few months and I’ve now gone off it and couldn’t care less. It’s like I’m not myself in these states. Now I can see it.
I still suffer from anxiety as well. We just moved house and the first day I was going to work from the new house on the bus, I was so incredibly nervous and anxious. I don’t know why.
The depressive and worthless moods have been there a lot too.
But I’ve also been experiencing de ja vu a hell of a lot which can be so powerful it makes me dizzy and confuses me.
(If you read all that, thanks a lot)
So what’s your opinion? Whst category do I fit into? Cheers


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